i think summer is my least favorite season.

i mean, its too hot, theres too much sun, all my friends arent home, and i have to work.

>_< i dont call that fun. @ all.

*sigh* o well. @least i can still enjoy an occasional comment on my deviantart account or a random IM from someone online.

alright. thats enough for now i guess.

who am i again? i forget sometimes.

today i had yet another identity crisis.

we're sorry for any pain that we might be responsible for.

it was an accident.

pity that it had to be u.

ok...lets sum up july in a smilie face.

july =  

yeah. thats right. blah. everyday this summer has been completely boring. all i've really done so far is complete ½ of each of my summer AP assignments.
and now i feel that i really dont want to finish them. oi...it is pointless, cause no one understands.
i've managed to write some new poetry this summer, but i havent added it to allpoetry yet. i should probly do that...
so anyways, back to y i started this entry.

i think that i have officially become a specter of this world. i can no longer find refuge in my little group of friends.  i'm not really looking for someone to talk to, but sometimes it would be nice.
i log-on to both AIM and MSN in hopes of talking to someone but to no avail. i have to sit in silence and watch people sign-in, sign-off, or go 'away'.  its a boring life. to waste away infront of the computer.
but u kno what? thats all i have going for me as 'fun' this summer, unless u count summer assignments. >_< bleh.  no thank you.
yeah. i kno that no one is really enjoying this book club website that i made [well, @ least during the summer].  maybe i'll be surprised this school year, and more ppl will post stuff.  but thats just a dream.
im really jealous of one of my friends. she had the opportunity to go to some really cool sounding camps this summer.  y couldnt i have had the chance to? cause im too stupid to realize that the camp existed. plus, of course, there is little to no chance that i'd have enough time/money for it.
its a pity that i cant live a perfect life.  but then again, what is a perfect life? there is no such thing.
there will always be a chance for progression and no two ppl will have the opportunity to have exactly the same lifestyle.  *shakes head* such a pity...
oh. i hate summer. y do u ask? well...thats simple to answer.  the sun, people going on vacations, and basically everyone causing me to become invisible.
i cant ask anyone to go out to do stuff...i mean. i dont have the social skills to do that. it was rather upsetting for the first year [freshman year to be exact] but since then i've learned to control my 'emotions'.  man, im pathetic. o well.

alright then, ppl. i bet ur growing tired of listening to me go on and on about nothing in particular. so i'll end this entry.
LATER

i found this online. and it made me really happy.

ever since i saw the first ½ @ sarah m's house b4 we went to Kings Dominion.

i had a quest to fulfill...to find the Breaking the Habit video and watch it in its entirity.

and so...i began by searching for it online, under 'BTH video'.  i got many hits, yet most of them wanted to take longer than i could stand to download. until finally one day...

i managed to discover this site --> http://www.bandbuilder.com/breakingthehabit/player.php

just go there to either listen to the song and watch some pics from the video or u can choose to view the entire video and then stay tuned for the making of the video. its fun stuff...i seem to be addicted.

so yeah, thats about it for now. more updates to follow.

LATER

o...and heres where u can listen Celldweller's Stay with Me (Unlikely)
http://www.flashflashrevolution.com/downloads/celldweller/Stay_With_Me_Unlikely_.mp3

alright ppl...im surrounded by college students, professors, and random VJAS students.  >_<

i dont know what im supposed to be doing, cause...well. im confused.

i've already spent about 2hrs standing by the 'poster' of my project [its actually a power-point presentation, o well].  i've only had to explain my project to one person. ONE! geez...where are all the judges for VAS? are there any?!

gah. i dont know what i'm going to do...but hey! im getting free food out of this. so it isnt SO bad...ya kno?

heyheyhey. im so happy that my website is actually improving.
i started w/o any knowledge of how to create a webpage, and now i have one thats exceptable.

im definitly going to write something better [than this entry] later, cause i need to go to history class...dang.